Emotions can kill you. Psychologically.

Sometimes I wonder if I really do have a place in this world. Completely oblivious to the things around me. I hurt those who make me happy. I stay with those who hurt me. There are those who I stick with that are good influences on me, such as Kayla and John. But there are more that hurt me than heal me. I've been so depressed lately. I know I have a new car and a new laptop and all, but I can't get over Ameno and what's going to happen tomorrow. I've been told to get over it and that Ameno is just an inanimate object, just a car, and I blew up. Ameno may be a car, but she was my first and we had so many memories. I know everyone goes through it, but everyones emotions are different. I loved that car. Everyone knew when I drove by, it was me. I've been having headaches all the time, i guess now I know what Kayla goes through all the time.
I have a zit that is irritating the hell out of my right above my eyebrow.
Sometimes I sit here and think of how pathetic I've become. I go to school only for an hour, then I come home and get online till i go to sleep. I try to make plans with friends, but things always end up coming up.
I actually went out today. Went with a friend to the WR stadium to see her kid in the band competition, it was actually pretty interesting.
What is wrong with me?
I think I know what it is.
I start my period tomorrow...