Incredible... not

So this weekend was good. Didn't have to go to school Friday so I stayed with John. AH-mazing night... and morning. ;] We went out to eat one of the nights and went to see Inception. I saw it again, but it was even better cause I had him there with me. Then I got a back massage. It was just an incredible weekend. Till today came.
It really is Yin and Yang.
I had to go home... Scott started interferring and saying stuff. He then told me he thought I cheated on him with some boy, but that got fixed, but what really had me sad was Ryan's input for it. He told Scott he wouldn't be surprised if I did, and he called me a bitch. But Scott said not to say anything cause he didn't want to start drama. Which is understandable. I'm beginning to think Ryan is two-faced. Which makes me sad. I don't want to start thinking down on him.
I started crying earlier cause everything just hit me once again. I was thinking of moving out, cause John's family offered me to live there again, but i don't know. Heather said the choice was competely mine.
I wouldn't mind living with John, but then I'll have to deal with his sister.
Today me, John, Melissa, and her friend were out on the couch in the living room and I had two burgers and gave the last two bites and he was like, "you're full?!" And I said "Yes, you know I don't eat much." And Melissa looked at me up and down and said, "You don't eat much?" with that disgusted look, which translated into, "You're fat, which means you eat A LOT." but I brushed it off, but later told John about it cause he didn't notice cause he was watching TV, and he got so mad and went on a rant on how I'm 'perfect.'
He told me I'm the love of his life.  He's never sat right next to someone and his stomach started hurting cause he knew I had to drop him off and be on my way home.
I miss him. So much, I understand why his stomach got upset... cause mine is too.
Kayla, I wish you the same luck to find the man who treats you like a princess that you are.
Someone after only a few months, you know he's the man you want to marry.
I want him. I want Johnathan Lucas French. I want to be with him for the rest of my life.
He has his flaws, who doesn't, but he's perfect for me.
And he loves me.