Take your penny back

Lately I've felt like crying, I don't know what it is. Depression is taking over me and I'm trying to get myself out of it. There's not much that I can really say. Its hard to get over things when I have no one to talk to. Many people say if I ever need to talk, I can just get a hold of them, but when I try, there is no response or they just don't want to hear it. I guess I'll just revert back to the way I grew up, bottle everything inside. That's when people liked me anyways. Now all people are saying is that I've just changed for the worse even though I don't see it. I just want to die. But that will solve nothing. My life means more than that, I've accomplished so much already and so many people are expecting more out of me before I do decide to leave this world. My choice or not. It seems like everything depresses me now. Sure, John cheers me up, but that's when he's not playing his Black Ops or working. Then his mom is still here and pissing us both off. Because I didn't make dinner by 5pm, I have to eat leftovers, you know what. Fuck it, I'll just go what is the third day now not eating. Not like it makes any difference.
Peace.